HERONLESS

I look for him from the foot bridge    he’s not in any of his usual places
not mid-stream in shallows           not below the arch under the road

not at the corner on a stony outcrop       the fishes are swimming undeterred
and the day feels so heronless without him

the sky has turned a darker grey than he is      the sun has hidden her light
that would be yellow like his eye      the water has tried to ripple itself into feathers

nothing is as delicate as the way he steps forward      oh I know I shouldn’t
be thinking about herons when the world is collapsing round our ears

when there’s every kind of injustice to be railed against   but if only I could
stand in his long legged careful presence    I think I could almost bear it

without him there’s a lack       of sharp beaked swiftness
of keen concentrated stillness      the hunter’s single pointed focus

I can’t seem to turn away from his absence    can’t seem to face the furious
flood of traffic                    can’t find the strength

to read any messages let alone     the news       even the ducks are not laughing
but sleeping         their heads under their wings in sorrow

trees ring their leaves and sigh      I’ll look for him again tomorrow.

 

Sophia Argyris was born in Belgium to an English and Greek family, grew up mostly in Scotland, and currently lives in England. Her work has been published in Atrium, Magma, Prole and Under the Radar amongst others, and is forthcoming in The Seventh Quarry.