Snowdrops

I remember you from my crayon days.
Clung about the tree like children to a maypole,
you held green secrets close,
the magic of the changing seasons
folded in your petals.

In the months before my mother died
I anticipated you with five-year-old wonder.
I heard fairy-bells in the Christmas winds,
their ringing approaching through gray haze.
I didn’t know then that fairies are tricksters.

Before spring could come, she was gone,
more fleeting than you.
You bloomed softer that year.
I understood your parting more clearly,
hated that you, at least, would return.

Yesterday I saw you again,
clinging to life against ballistic raindrops.
You glowed against the mud,
gifts laid at winter’s grave.
You redden my eyes still.

 

Rachel Bruce (she/her) is a poet based in South London. Her work has appeared in or is upcoming in The Telegraph, Mslexia, The Daily Drunk, Atrium, Lucent Dreaming and Fragmented Voices, among others. Find her on Twitter @still_emo.