This is not you, but someone soaked in fake Brut
coming at me in a gesture of fake generosity.

Your face was on a bus pass,
your hair falling around your face like a curly straw,
pressed in a puddle between the Queen’s old face
and an Aldi receipt for slippers and chicken.

I owned a g-string like this,
the back connected by a rhinestone butterfly.

Starved myself at school to save
my dinner money, bought it from Poundland.

The ash that screams into the night,
the lake that dries, the child amongst the rubble,
the heat, the fire, the lack of books,

Akademichna Street
 
is bombed-out flats, is
the hot-pink Sweet Bakery Café, is
straggly new-planted trees, is

Never shows up late to a single thing he’s invited to
Always brings the most thoughtful and carefully curated and perfect gift
Never shows up early and never once overstays his welcome
Always appears well groomed and clean and appropriately dressed

This is just a woman,
sticking her life back together
after years spent recovering.

What you are –
 
bodied light, a store of oil
 
a hive of warm blood