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Anyonita Green

 

 

 

Examining clots

It wobbles slightly, red wine jelly.

I peer at it, nose close enough

to smell the iron, the scent of coagulant,

inhaling through slightly parted lips

I imagine I can taste it, how

everything tasted metallic, like monkey

bar poles in those sweaty days of childhood,

of playgrounds, skimming stones

on the river in the gulley, our shoes caked

with Carolina red clay. There is a whole world

inside this clot — corridors and alleys

veins and cells and the unfertilised would-be

baby. My ovaries contract/release violently,

pumping out eggs, my uterus doing the work

(languidly) of nest-building, this empty red room

forced out. No baby. No walls. My panties

fill with blood. In bed, period dreams cause night

sweats, cramps demand the soothing balm

of a hot water bottle and I vacillate between

being in awe at the beautiful ruby waste

my body creates and angry that I must feel

this monthly until, without warning, my body

decides she is done making the nest, done

holding out hope for a small-faced baby, for

a man to lay and create life with.

Anyonita Green is an American immigrant living in Manchester, England. She has an MA in Poetry from MMU and enjoys writing confessional poetry and essays. Her work has appeared in Rainy City Stories and Propel. She can be found on Instagram @anyonita

Angela Howarth Martinot

What seems to be the problem ? He asks
in that slightly condescending tone.
Seems,     I think,      Seems.
It seems, I say,
that I have a problem with my inner fish,

Bianca Pina

My Dad once dismissed a friend as a hypocrite,
which I took to be an induction to the truth.
Lately though, I think the things I love in you
I love because they’re grossly inconsistent.

Pascal Vine and – – – ajae – – – for our Invisible and Visible Disabilities Feature

Chronic fuck slug
Chronic floor sleeping
Chronic fist seething
Chronic food swallowing
Chronic feuding skin
Chronic foreseen surrender
Chronic failure synonym
Chronic sel(f)-inlictednes(s)
Chronic found inner-piece(s)
Chronic forcibly sending love (&) (kisse(s))
Chronic we (f)ucking mi(s)s you

– Pascal Vine

breaking through the battering lashings of exhaustion and overwhelm,
a quiet, passionate voice buds within you.
it exasperatingly sprouts and presses and pouts, saying:
“we’re forever dogged!
it’s forever dusk!
our soul’s been over-tillaged!
you’re becoming but a husk!
we need a rest
we need a break please!
our brittle bones are steeped in ache.”

– – – ajae – – –

Ellie Spirrett and Erin Coppin for our invisible and visible disabilities feature

This is the first time you have been out in three weeks.
Today sits like a joker between diamonds. Your punctured
skin sags over your bones, and you have dragged it
dangerously down the tarmac to mine this charity
shop for new parts.

– Ellie Spirrett

the riding of bikes
the rhythm of legs
the wind-driven tears
the wobbling turns
the handlebarred bags
the motion, the motion

-Erin Coppin

Jonathan Croose

The gravel drive seems longer now,
the knock feels like a split of skin
and out on the fen road, by now there are chalk marks,
diagrams and calculations, cones and contraflows,
plastic zips and silent spinning lights.
No more need for sirens there,
but here, here on the doorstep, every alarm must ring.