I imagine returning to the house.
Furniture is piled up in the rain—
the ideas that won’t fit.

I used to dial your number to hear your voice. I would hold the receiver for a long time as if your voice was trapped inside . . .

Shove it, that farewell
and the sky shimmering with frost
and the waves wrecking on the shore

Tom’s advice, mind you,
was to drink hot chocolate
last thing at night
on a garden bench
beneath the moon.

Today, I talked with a friend about death
and what it means to have arrived in my life
before I have to leave it . . .

they said sing in private,
Zan shouldn’t sing.

The train is the way,
the tracks a scar cut
deep in the land
you can’t help but touch.

Mum was
a raised axe and a party hat.

i run like a goat
tongue-lolled