Breathe
Breathe. Breathe in, breathe out.
Those were the only thoughts that could run through her head as her heart felt as if it were being crushed within her. Damn it, when would she learn? She was constantly over extending herself and yet the “karmic” favor was so rarely returned that by now she most certainly should have learned that it was a bad, no a horrible idea to put her heart out on display.
David had been her latest sure thing, this one was different. Susie had recently proclaimed her undying love to him and they had begun to plan a future together. She was sure he would be the one, the one to put her first, to be as generous towards her as she had always been towards others, to love her as much as she loved him, and to not be afraid to proclaim it. Susie couldn't wait to tell all of her friends about him, about how different and wonderful he was.
Earlier in the day Susie had decided to enjoy the last nice fall day of the year and to meet her friend Margie at an outdoor cafe. The two women sat talking, and giggling like school girls in love as Susie shared the plans that she and David were making. As she was leaving the cafe Susie bumped into David's sister. Susie greeted her warmly, the woman was clearly baffled, she had no idea who Susie was or why she should care that she was a friend of David's.
They parted company, Susie's world suddenly began to hurt to move through. She knew this feeling all too well. She had been here before.
Breathe. Breathe in, breathe out.
* Carmen Schreffler writes when the muses speak from the mountains of Pennsylvania. More of her ramblings can be found at www.lolawisdom.com
