{"id":962,"date":"2007-01-10T20:08:24","date_gmt":"2007-01-10T20:08:24","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/ink.verticalplus.co.uk\/archive\/?p=962"},"modified":"2007-01-10T20:08:24","modified_gmt":"2007-01-10T20:08:24","slug":"new-prose-by-alexandra-erin","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/inksweatandtears.co.uk\/archive\/new-prose-by-alexandra-erin\/","title":{"rendered":"New prose by Alexandra Erin"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><font size=\"2\"><span style=\"font-weight: bold; font-family: Verdana,Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;\">Getting Real (Inspired By Actual Hallucinations)<\/span><br style=\"font-family: Verdana,Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;\"><br style=\"font-family: Verdana,Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;\"><span style=\"font-family: Verdana,Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;\">You think you know the real me? I ask him. You think you&#39;ve seen inside me? I laugh. I laugh bitterly and gaily and I see that now he&#39;s the one who&#39;s uncertain, he&#39;s the one who&#39;s afraid. He&#39;s twice my size and would tower over me even if I wasn\u201at the one on the ground, but I&#39;ve seen the look on his face too many times in the mirror to mistake it. There is no real me, I tell him, and though at first I was just sputtering I know now that the words that tumble from my lips are the truth and so I let them keep on tumbling. The real me is a fictional character, I say.&nbsp;A figment of my imagination.&nbsp;I have spent twenty-six years lonely and afraid because I didn\u201at know the answer to the question who am I, and now I finally realize the question should have been who are WE. We don&#39;t have an answer for that yet, but we do know this: we are not amused, and we are through being used.<\/span><br style=\"font-family: Verdana,Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;\"><br style=\"font-family: Verdana,Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;\"><span style=\"font-family: Verdana,Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;\">For there is strength in numbers, and our name is legion.<\/span><br style=\"font-family: Verdana,Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;\"><br style=\"font-family: Verdana,Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;\"><span style=\"font-family: Verdana,Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;\">Is that real enough for you?<\/span><br style=\"font-family: Verdana,Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;\"><span style=\"font-family: Verdana,Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;\"><\/span><br style=\"font-family: Verdana,Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;\"><br style=\"font-family: Verdana,Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;\"><span style=\"font-family: Verdana,Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;\">\u2022 Alexandra Erin leads a life of prolific creativity punctuated by episodes of an ongoing mental breakdown and also writes <\/span><a style=\"font-family: Verdana,Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;\" href=\"http:\/\/www.starharbornights.com\">www.starharbornights.com<\/a><\/font><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Getting Real (Inspired By Actual Hallucinations)You think you know the real me? I ask him. You think you&#39;ve seen inside me? I laugh. I laugh bitterly and gaily and I see that now he&#39;s the one who&#39;s uncertain, he&#39;s the one who&#39;s afraid. He&#39;s twice my size and would tower over me even if I [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_et_pb_use_builder":"","_et_pb_old_content":"","_et_gb_content_width":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-962","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-prose-poetry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/inksweatandtears.co.uk\/archive\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/962","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/inksweatandtears.co.uk\/archive\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/inksweatandtears.co.uk\/archive\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/inksweatandtears.co.uk\/archive\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/inksweatandtears.co.uk\/archive\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=962"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/inksweatandtears.co.uk\/archive\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/962\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/inksweatandtears.co.uk\/archive\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=962"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/inksweatandtears.co.uk\/archive\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=962"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/inksweatandtears.co.uk\/archive\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=962"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}